Superficial

This has been something on my mind for awhile. If someone becomes famous, and they meet someone who likes them initially only for their popularity, but later actually falls in love with them, is it so wrong then that that person only liked the famous person for their fame initially? I mean, if that famous wasn't famous in the first place they might not have fallen in love at all.

And if is wrong, then is it wrong to like someone for their looks initially, and then later actually falling in love with them? If that person wasn't so beautiful in the first place, then they might have not gotten to know how beautiful each other was on the inside.

And maybe some famous people are only stuck up because they're sick of all the people who just want to be friends with them because they're famous, who are the same people who wouldn't have given them the time of day back in high school or college. Have we ever thought of that?

New Best Week Ever??

Well, it could have been. Next week I mean. Janine's Birthday party (that will be interesting in the least haha). Halloween and what could potentially go down that weekend. As of right now I'm not planning on doing anything. Its hard for me to find the motivation to be social these days. Aside from hanging out with friends an sporadic dates its hard to find people who have the same interests as me these days without looking at freshman and let me tell you, the freshman world is a different place my friend.

Then there's the start of the NBA Season. An occasion that I think should be celebrated as a holiday with us having no school. Yeah? Well. I only have one class that day so its basically like I have a day off (though I could skip class and it could really be a day off. :D ). But I am very excited. Too bad Euseung's gonna be in Korea so we can't have an opening day celebration. darn it.

And then there's.... Lights. The L.A. El Rey show is next Tuesday. Unfortunately, running down there for a concert and coming back up makes no sense logically, academically, economically, financially, and so on and so on. The only way it makes sense is fantastically. Yeah, it would be super awesomnically. I actually considered going down and running back up. Its so VERY tempting when you don't have a social life and all you have is basically... school. It would be a crazy adventure.

After talking with other LightsArmy kids and trying to organize somewhat of an L.A. meet up its been so kewl to talk to people and connect with them. They are such awesome people. The L.A. LightsArmy is now 23+ strong and still growing and it honestly kills that I won't be able to meet these people that I've befriended. Its really a neat experience to try and organize a group of random strangers together to meet, plan, and attend something together.

It was even fun to talk to Lights' sister on chat. She is SO COOL. Not to mention, the possible opportunity to hang out with Lights after the show is like seeing a good friend you had not seen in years (but multiplied by 23 because of the other 23 kids there).

Sometimes, my patience is near breaking point and I always wonder when it will break. Hopefully life gets better. Hopefully next week is great.

WALLPAPER MANIA! PART DEUCE!

WALLPAPER MANIA!

Some of my favorite wallpapers. I will post more later.

W.I.H.L.O.D.

What I have Learned on Dates

I don't know if I've mentioned this before or not, but I was talking with a friend about dating and stuff. She said she has never been on a date before (even though she had a boyfriend) and doesn't seem to make a big deal out of it. I don't think it has to be a big deal, but I told her that one of the biggest things I get out of a date is what I learn from the other person. I usually don't ask out a person on a date unless I realize there's something else there besides physical attraction or if there's something I can learn from the other person.

That's right, I'm a leech. I suck the good out of people, apply it to myself, and then toss the carcass away. OK, that's not really a leech...more like some weird monster from a movie. And yeah, that sounds weird. But really, I look for the good each person can bring that I may not have and try to learn new things because everyone is from different places. i believe everyone has some good quality to bring to the table. I then capitalize on the good and try to make it a part of me. I guess in a way it does sound selfish, haha. But this may be reason why I have a feminine side to me.

For example, I am not much of a family person I admit. I LOVE my family. I am VERY grateful and thankful for them. Without them I would not be here. However, I don't get homesick. I don't feel the need to be in weekly contact with them (though if I feel prompted to I will always try and be in touch). I'm not a touchy person. Until recently, "I love you" was simply not in my diction. However, I was hanging out with someone once (I don't know if it could be counted as a date), and we were discussing our greatest fears. I said mine was h

eights, getting jumped, getting attacked, getting beat up, being outnumbered in a fight, and stuff like that. Her first one was spiders, but then she said something that impacted me. She said she was most afraid of being away from her family in a catastrophe. You know something is important to someone when they mention it in casual conversation like that. It was just something that never crossed my mind. It really has changed the way I interact and feel about my family and even my future family.

I've learned how to ask questions, how to interact and be genuinely interested in people, how to put more effort into school work, how to be more organized (I started using a planner more frequently after seeing her organization), how to be relaxed.

I've also learned where my actual interests lay, to be a stronger person in integrity and living example of Christ, how to say "no" (haha), how to be a better listener, to be positive and proactive, how to be more sensitive, to appreciate classical music, and etc.

All dates are not equal, but all daters have stuff to learn from and appreciate. How else will I learn about Conneticut or Massachusetts without going there?? Yes, books. That's the answer, but you know what I mean.

So yes, dating is fun. Its the opportunity to learn, to understand someone else, and, for me, to develop.

Rehash, Best of

Continuing with rehashing some old posts because I don't have much to write about...

Best Photos 2009-2010! yay.

Run and tell that homeboy.

And we are back with another edition of "T.I.R.L.", texts I really like. :)

Anthony Sto

- no prob man we'll def hang again another lights show lol

LightsArmy ftw.

Asia Smith

- Yay! We kick butt :)

- :) you are awesome.

(after joking about getting swine flu)

- Ha ha you wouldn't hang out with me if I did? Come on! Lol jk. Yes we will hang for sure.

- :( you cant miss class for ten mins? Lol

- You should :) and then we can do something crazy cool together for it.

ah friends. what are they good for if not to tell you to miss class? haha.

Brittany

- A little bit out of options. There's always the screw college option.

-Its true. Whats an apartment without an asian wall.

- Its like the great wall of china.

- It really is my mormon crack

- You should try it. It would make days like today worth living.

And those are my friends. haha.

David Stern (Luke)

- I love you. :)

Yes...this is a different text than the last one I put last time. There's a lot of love goin around.

James

- Brittney is very upset that you didn't play Colors of the Wind for her before you left.

- Well I prefer single girls who aren't psychotic. Otherwise not really.

Kelsi

- Story: one day a girl was walking to campus to attend her chinese class when suddenly the bottom of her shoe fell off and she had to return home to fix it...She never made it to chinese that day.. The end.

When your friend is willing to entertain you with a story in order to tell in an indirect way that she won't be in class that day, that's when you know they are awesome. haha

Kirsi

- O xie xie! Wo men xi huan qu....when are you going?

Oh yeah, starting to text in chinese. haha.

Miranda

- Come hang out with me! I'm a loner

- My table is getting bombarded by strangers! T.T

Mom

- U r funny! Did you date this week?

Yep. What are moms for?

- >:( That is what u got in the temple?

My mom's response after I told her I got revelation in the temple that I need to go to a Lights concert. LOL

Rachel

- maybe? can you tell me who you are first?

after I asked her to go to the canon center with me

- Im not sure I ever had your number...um, sure, now I know you're not a kidnapper

Shalise

- Wahoo! Sometimes I just love chinese! :)

"Wahoo". Clearly the sound you make when you sometimes love chinese.

Tyreke Evans (mike)

on spying a guy in class

- LOL, i think I would too, but I guess he is just a weird guy...though our continual spying and analysis of him makes us kinda weird too

Unknown number that I'm still trying to figure out

- Where are you?

- OK I'll be there in a minute

- I'm here.

-Across from Sugar and Spice

WHO ARE YOU?? I'm kinda embarrassed that I didn't save the number and I have no idea who it is...