you be me

Written for a dear friend of mine,. *sigh*

Please just hear lend me your ear
How in the world did we end up here?
It’s been 4 months much less a year
But it feels like more
with the sweat and tears
Used to be we were close and near
What’s this growing distance I fear?
I wish all our problems were laid and clear
But I guess life is more like broken mirrors dear
I don’t know what goes on inside your head
Even more confused after the things you’ve said,
I won’t guess, cuz all that stress from guessing
Would leave me tired and brain dead
It doesn’t mean I haven’t tried
But I won’t lie when I say I
Have no idea how or why
We see some things from such different eyes.
Apparently the way we see has led to all this hostility
And I know most of the problem lies with me
Maybe this was never meant to be.
Never meant to be…
Never meant to be free and easy,
webs are concrete til the wind starts to get breezy.

it wasn't until i read my journal today did I realize that I owe a ton to LightsArmy.

I think we forget that the advice to "forget yourself and go to work" applies to something outside the mission. When you're down, get to work. Whether this means exercise, job, school, or service, get to work. Forget about yourself. The world is too big. i'm not saying forget about your feelings, bury them deep inside, and make yoursel resentful. There is a time and place to confide those feelings in God and others. But we must not be too careless that we become ungrateful.

That's what I need to do. Get back to work. LightsArmy has been great. But it might be a little too much for me to handle right now.