My New Philosophy

I've realized something this past semester.

For this past year, I've been trying too hard to become what other people want me to be. Granted, its not always a bad thing. The people who love you genuinely care for you and want you to become a better person. Even they, sometimes though, forget that I am not they, and they are not me (yes, I totally butchered grammar there). I can't be them.

The result is there are moments when I've forgotten who I am. Not that I forgot that I'm a child of God, but that I've lost my identity of what makes me unique. Instead, I've tried to become more cool, more popular, more well-liked, more judgemental, less tolerating, and superior to others to please other people or to elevate myself.

I am me. There's no one else who can be me. I am genuinely nice. That's who I am. Sometimes I am too nice. But that's me again. i don't know why I'm that way. And sometimes people don't like it for whatever reason.

Besides, in emulating the Savior, nothing else quite matters as much.

Having said that, I can't go overbooard and force someone to love me for who I am. I can ask that they accept me for who I am, but nothing further than that. And that's ok.

However, I'm still trying to get better at being a good person. I just don't want to be turning away people simply because they aren't cool enough or because they don't fit my clique.

And that's my new philosophy. :)